Blog 106--We're all Poor--

Almost everyone I know is poor (in money). Poor and being abused by either members of their own family, degraded by members of their own family, and forced to pay ridiculous prices for food at the grocery store.

Blog 105--Living in Another World--

I live amongst a lot of atheists. Sometimes it's hard because they're so right. :P But who cares what proof we have and don't have? Sometimes we just want to live in a world that isn't our own. I think it's important to have a good cosmological perspective and have a thirst for knowledge, but the way to go about it isn't clear for anyone. A lot of people think I'm ridiculous because I study theology, and very close people to me have said: what are you going to do with that? or even... 'I think the theology branch should die.' Yes, indeed. Imagine that. Imagine... sometimes I wake in the morning to a dove-coloured sky and for a few moments, I am sure that outside my apartment, my room, is nothing. It is a white box filled with nothing but emptiness and utter silence. I don't like the idea, but for a few minutes, it is my reality and that reality fills me up and tells me something different than what I've always known. Why is this a bad thing? I've said a lot of things about religion, but I've studied a lot of religion, and I understand all the facets of being or not being religious. Religious people choose to be religious, and to follow another view of life that perhaps isn't real, isn't the truth. It doesn't matter. I don't blame a person for wanting to escape this world; I hate it, as you can tell from this blog. I hate my society, even though I'm safe in the streets... I'm still faced with bullshit every day, poverty, unfairness, cruelty, and everything that makes me hate reality. So, I write. Writing is really a part of me, and it makes me connect with the deep inviolate world that is in my head. Cruelty, brutality and all other things that in real life displease me I can control in my world, in my own reality. It's a bit like religion; you pick and choose what you want your reality to look like and there is nothing WRONG with that. Be a solipsist! Believe in God! Study ancient gods! But do it in a way that's personal and beautiful, and never impose it on others. We all need our own spaces. We all need our own time. Take your time. Enjoy your space.

oxxox Peace