Knowledge and learning: my truth
My truth is that the more I gather in my periods of gathering, the more I am aware of the knowledge around me. I feel that I can pick and choose what I want to learn now that I am 21 and in my senior year at University. I'm going to Graduate school next year and I realize that I'm terrified because although I am ready I don't feel it. I feel like I can no longer as easily express myself due to the duality and complexity of this world. I live and I now see everything. I see the constructions of society, the double meanings of everything. I'm interested more and more in philology and the sociology of language, if that can be a thing. This, all this, frightens me so much that I sometimes just want to escape and I think this is what all 20 year-olds do. I think it's normal to fear what is in front and attempt to live in the present, but we don't understand this. We live in the extreme present, like orgiastic Romans, drinking instead of studying, wasting away instead of being hopeful. Without commenting on the way of education, I just want to leave with my uncertainty of the tomorrow. But again, this is all normal for a person who has been on this ancient earth, amongst a youthful humankind, unable, weak, but everlastingly loving.
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