Blog #45 --Depression and Binge Eating--

So if you've read my other posts, I've mentionned before, I have Depression. No, I'm not depressed, because then that would make me have a cause to be so. Sometimes, I'll be the happiest person in the world and then, BAM, I feel so so so down and so sad. I don't know if I'm repressing something, but my soul is hurt, by something that is probably in my past, that probably has something to do with the terrible people I was working with for the past few springs and summer. I quit my jobs not at all satisfied because I KNEW I was the one who was doing the right thing. I choose Freedom over Autocracy, and sometimes over Order, and that's not to society's liking. Anyway, my Depression makes me want to binge eat. I never feel full and the things I feel like eating are chocolate, ice cream, and chips. I don't eat this usually, because I'm like super vegan and healthy, but I feel like I need it. It's a comfort food, yes, but I know that I shouldn't give in. Well... at least I'm not doing drugs. Like seriously, I'm eating chocolate like right now, right now... and it's so good. It's like Lupin giving chocolate to Harry after the dementors, you know? Personally, I think it's okay to binge eat a bit, maybe for that one day you're feeling like shit, but like every single comfort your soul finds, it'll want to latch on, and it'll be harder to pull away from the goodness of sugar and salt and fat. I was just talking to my bf and I noticed that as I had my cold, I was taking my pumps, Bricanyl and Pulmicort (which work really well btw) and then I stopped taking them. I think... I might be having some withdrawal after-effects. They are stimulants... hmm... idk. Whatevs, I'm not dead.

Character of the Day:
Arias Hammond

Apperances: TAFOW, TAMOW, TBOV, Shambles (?)
Bio: Arias is Rutherford's first born son. He is born to be an Alpha Male, but due to his confusion of life and wariness of his brother's religion, he is not mature enough to rule the town. Lancelot rules it in his stead of the time being. Arias is brainwashed by his younger Christian brother, Redfield, who attempts to make him believe everyone in the village is satan and terrible. Redfield ends up convincing him to act out a cruel deed, and for the entire book and sequel, Arias attemps to put the pieces of his destruction back to together, outside and inside of himself. Arias is an emotional and unsure character, who can be apathetic toward certain events and very sentimental about others, especially when it comes to the woman he ends up choosing as his Bride.

Vegan and Healthy Recipes
A bit longer to make :P Guacamole Spread
Banana Bread
Pesto Recipe
Bok Choi Recipe
 Living Wannabe Vegan
Vegan Options and Problems